Colourblind

You ever tried staying up, for like, as long as you can? Studies show that after a couple of days you start entering periods of ‘micro-sleep’. You remain concious, and even active, but docile, vacant, and keep no memories of what happens during the period (usually about 5-10 seconds).

The, eventually, you put your head down and bang, you’re out.

Feels like that’s pretty much what’s happened to me, except in my case the wakefulness has lasted 6 years.

Ever since…I had my episode, I’ve never really slept well. Insomnia comes and goes, and pretty much the only way to garauntee sleep was company (and even then, only sexually compatable company was garaunteed to give me a full night’s sleep). When I did sleep, it felt like micro-sleep, and I never really felt refreshed.

But now I’ve crashed, and I’m scared. I don’t like that I’ve changed all of a sudden. It’s also not helping my work that I can’t rouse myself for hours, as my body tries to adapt to this new system.

Perhaps I’m just bombing out of insomnia particularly hard. I don’t know.

It’s getting to me, though. Sorry if you don’t see me around so much, next few days.

I’m probably taking a nap.